People are strange

I had an experience last week that I really want to share. 

I was out in a park inline skating, when I decided to sit for a moment and enjoy the view. The weather was great and really sunny, which made everything look very bright and colourful. I decided to sit on a bench that looked straight to a lake and the path behind it. I was observing the people that were walking, jogging or just hunging out in the park, when two women wearing burkas came and sat to the bench next to the one I was sitting. I wanted to go talk to them, ask about their calture and find out their opinion on living the way they do, but I hesitated, because I thought they wouldn't be willing to talk to me.

While I was sitting there trying to find the courage to go ask them all those things I had in mind, I noticed an old couple that was walking towards where we were sitting. The woman saw the inline skates on my feet, smiled at me and wished me a nice evening. The old man stared at me with a strict look on his face, then pointed his finger to the women that were wearing the burkas and loudly asked if I was sitting with them. Of course they heard him and looked at us. When I awkwardly said "no", he looked at the sky and said "Thank God!". I didn't hesitate to ask him, why he said that. His response wasn't very clear. He just said "I can't understand that. I mean the things they wear. I just don't get it.". I politely told him that it is because of their calture and that he should respect that. Now the old man obviously annoyed by my response angrily said "I told you that I just don't get it." and left.

I felt embarassed and disappointed. He could have said it in a kind way, but he chose to be rude. After a while I got up to continue inline skating and I couldn't get what just happened out of my head. I wasn't sure if he was just being rude or racist. Either way, he shouldn't have reacted this way. Even if he was being racist, I respect his beliefs, I just don't respect the way he expressed them.

run away

No reason for me to stay

I wanna run away

...run away

If there's place at your game

Just be sure I wanna play

...wanna play

Then come back to see me smile

Oh I died for a while...

Suddenly

She was sitting there watching the christmas lights.
She was impressed, roaming around.
People were everywhere, the town was full of smiles.
Snow was falling from the sky.
The smell of candies and wine was all over the place.

Voices...

Everything stopped. Someone was on the ground.
What happened? What's wrong? Why is he bleeding?

Silence...

This is all new. Nothing seems familiar right now.
She likes new things.But now she's lost.
Who did this to the man who's on the ground?

Space...

Everyone is stepping aside.

The ambulance arrived.They are taking that man to the hospital.
Now they are all getting back to what they did before.
Smiling, eating, singing, dancing.

Fake...

Nothing.

What happened ? I wish I could tell.
I couldn't see. It was the fog. Just the fog.
Then? Then the voices. Noone else could hear them.
How? I don't know.
....? Oh , you need to know how I felt.
Well , darling, I felt nothing. Just a space.
Strange, isn't it?

The show must go on...

Everyone has their own ambitions ! Some expectations are harder and some easier to achieve. But what happens if we fail ? What if we really believed we could make it , but in the end the only thing we do is creating a chaos ?
Well, that's hard to answer , but in my personal opionion noone should give up just because of one failure. Ok, I got it: we tried sooo much to make it, we sacrificed things which may be very important for us and bla bla bla... On the other hand, what happens if we reach our destination ? We just find a new one and forget many situations we've been through until we reach our point. So why  don't we just find a new destination (that may finally be better than the first we had) when we fail , too? Nobody knows which path they 'll walk through, in the end. So why don't we just try to focus on things that really matter , enjoy the trip, dance in the chaos and let the show go on ?

Not yourself

There are these times in my life...when I just hope I didn't excist...when I imagine that what I experience is just a dream and I am not able to wake up...when everything I used to know has changed and all that mattered just collapsed...those times I feel like I'm somebody else. I'm not myself. I'm someone I prefer I never knew...

Challenge

All these years I've been dreaming how my life would be after school. I imagined myself into a great university, learning the things I like and later, applying those things as a profession. I've been always thinking the effort that had to be plaid in order to achieve my dreams. Studying , concentration! But if I was focusing only on them, then I would miss those years of my life that everyone describes as the best in human life, calling those years "childhood". Thus, there were countless moments that I neglected my obligations. As a child in place of reading came the game in the streets, and as a teenager I preffered going out for a coffee and having sleepless nights. Anyone experiences this period of their life in a different way. I feel lucky for the environment in which I grew up. I was in a warm, cozy and inviting environment. It was and still remains safe.

Now is the time, which many people of my age call "evaluation period". They believe that during this period , during the final exams, will show up who tried enough and who didn't, who deserves better or is not worth anything. However, I think that this period is nothing more than a challenge, a transition to the next level. An exam can not distinguish the good and the bad person, the worthy and the unworthy. The path that someone will create in his/her life depends solely on him/her.

So there's no need of anxieties. There are always alternatives. It is just enough to have will to keep trying...